and the battle goes on.

Well I regret to inform you all of the news i recieved today...wow, i can write half way formal....HAHA...

Anyways I got to St. Judes and did the blood blah blah blah....talked to my fave person there who happened to be a fro patro' member...then i went to A- Clinic...My doc walked in hugged me kissed me.....then said well, we got the results back and there is evidence of the phelidelphia chromosone(basicly in short terms CANCER) in your bone marrow. We will procede with transplant. He then said they where contacting my donor and getting them ready with test and stuff, and that soon i was goin to have to be going through alot of test. I have to go back Friday for a check up on my hip, then in have to go back on the 12 for blood work and then the 13 for a bone marrow aspirate...i still have to get my heart checked my lungs check, scans and stuff and i still have to get my central line put in...looks like its going to be a long month and a half. They are though going to allow me to go to my Idol show on the 13 and i get to spend my 21 bday out of the hospital but i think right after is when the chemo will begin. Im not sure what all will go down, i know it the past it was 4 days of intense chemo 4 days of full body radiation and then transplant. IM scared, im scared out of my mind, but i dont want my family to know. They are all breaking down, and someone has to be strong. I know God will be with me every step of the way. I know this will be a time when he carries me instead of walking beside me. He will take me through this and what ever happens is all in his will.

Me and mom where talkinga bout if i do die. I done told her what i wanted to be burried in, my Elliott Yamin shirt and some pajama pants haha, might as well go out in what i love to wear right. I know to some ppl it seems morbid to talk about this stuff, but we all die dont we, at least i get to be prepared for it, at least i knwo it might happen, and if it does, i will have everything takin care of. Well thats all for now, ill post pics up tm hopefully...Love you all.
Amanda