A little bit of venting

I really dont care who reads this, but i need something to vent to. Any ways my name is Amanda Rhea Jones. Im 20 soon to be 21. Im in college and majoring in Family Psychology, with hopes of working with children battling serious illnesses, who need someone to talk to. I have an adult form of leukemia, called Chronic Myeloid Leukemia and it sucks. No the treatments isnt as hard as what most people have to go through, but you know what it still sucks. Just beacuse i still have hair and im not in the hospital all the time, doesnt mean my chemo doesnt make me sick. I have stomach aches for 2 weeks straight, headaches for a week at a time. Its not fun. Im in remission but i still have to take Chemo, it doesnt make sense to me. I have to make a decision soon on whether or not to get a bone marrow transplant. It could be life or death decision, how am i at 20 years old supposed to make that decision. My mom basicly thinks im a charity case to Elliott Yamin and the Etrain and that hurts. The Etrain was there for me before this ordeal started. And there hasnt been one day that hey havent been there. Its bad when your Etrain family is there for you more then your parents are.

Anyways im really excited Chris Sligh just anounced that Blake and Chris are doing a cake session which is awesome. And a Gina Chris S duet, which rocks they are the 2 people that got voted off way before there time.

IM goin to say something about the idols now lol.

Im excited about seeing Blake Lewis, He is a idol that actually supports something close to my heart, child hood cancer research. He is a great talent, and was pefect fo this season. Even though i thought he was really dorky and cocky, yea i know blakergirls shoot me now lol...haha He is still my fave this season.

Jordin, I think it was best that she won, girls need someone to look up to, plus this girl can sing "and shes only 17" dang that got on my nerves. Seriously Randy we get that she was 17 you didnt have to tell us every week.

Melinda, LaKisha and Haley- sorry i have to group them together, they are all great just not my faves, Melinda can sing better then alot of people, but she was just kind aboring to me.But if she is anything like her friend Mandisa, she is amazing. KiKi, i love her, haha, she is awesome, she has a great personality. Haley is cute and i feel sorry for her for the leg crap she had to put up with.

Chris Sligh- The best voice of the idol boys this year. His personality was great, Idol showed him in a bad light and that ticks me off. He has a great sense of humor, and i actually am very similar to him. But cant wait to see him on tour.

Phil Stacey-Seriously, amazing thats all i can say. The Memphis show im goin with a Phil fan, its goin to be crazy. But Phil looks like he is prolly one fo the most fun guys to hang out with, i love watching his interviews, and amazing voice seriously he give CHris S. competition when it comes to the best male vocalist.

Sanjaya- LOVE HIM...he was my fave from the begining the only person i cied for when they got voted off, though i did scream at the tv for a hour after Phil got voted off. Sanajaya has an amazing talent so what he has a soft sweet voice and cant sing with power like Phil, Blake cant do it either. But I will scream like a little fan girl when he comes on stage lol.

Gina-The best Female this season, Gina should of won. I cant complain though i didnt vote, i know its bad to not vote, i did vote at some point for Sanjaya then Phil and BLake on Idol give back and Blake to win. But serioulsy Gina kicks butt, rocker girls are awesome, and Gina is beautiful and would be a great for the music scene right now.

CHris Rich- is the idol i hated but now love. He can sing he is hot, YES WAY HOTTER THEN BLAKE haha, sorry, Blake. I dont think ppl understand me, Blake is my fave idol, but when it comes to my fave all aroudn Idol this year its Chris R, haha, but seriously look at his arms, they are beautiful, i didnt know arms could be hot lol. So i have a werid CHris thing, i cant go to sleep with out listening to him sing Change the world....its that weird?

ok well im off
God Bless
amanda