Feelings

In the past few days i have been told so many things about how people feel. I have been called brave, strong and a hero. Those things are what you call someone who has lived a life of great courage and honor. Not me.

Bravery- brave spirit or conduct; courage; valor.
showiness; splendor; magnificence.
a quality of spirit that enables you to face danger or pain without showing fear.


Strong-mentally powerful or vigorous.
of great moral power, firmness, or courage.


Hero- a man of distinguished courage or ability, admired for his brave deeds and noble qualities.
a person who, in the opinion of others, has heroic qualities or has performed a heroic act and is regarded as a model or ideal.

Im not these things. At least i dont feel like i am.

When people tell me i dont know how you do it. I couldn't ever do it. Yes you could. You buck up and rise to the challenge. Lance Armstrong once said you have 2 choices Give up or Fight like hell. and you know what i have never went down without a fight and i dont plan on this being any differnt.

Im scared, and im weak. I am powerless against this cancer. When i am alone.

But with you guys, my friends my family, MY GOD. I am strong. I have power. I am Brave.

So im goin to do the only choice i see right in this situation. IM GOIN TO FIGHT LIKE HELL.